一个字........乱啊!!!!!!!!不爽到极点!!!!!!

最近真的很烦
大考要到了
够烦了
连那个令人能开心一点的class trip
他们也把他搞到比大考更难....乱啊!!
A说要这样,可以啊
明天B说要那样,也可以...
但是早上你讲这样
下午就讲那样
就不可以咯
你以为我什么都要听你的啊
你以为你是我妈啊
发梦啦你
有些有很容易被人动摇
哇
酱我讲去死有钱拿,你就去死哦
一 点决心都没有
怎样做大事
有些人家A就A, 人家B就B..
什么东东啊你
真的是......气 .....
已经为家很烦了
还给我一大堆麻烦
你不烦, 我都很烦啊!!!
都说一大堆 华人girl就是乱.............
乱啊.....................
烦啊.........................................................................T_T

mood.....

just left for 1 month
and then the things that will decide my future is coming
final
finally u come
u hope i welcome u
or u hope i faster finish u
feel no mood again
study no mood
facebooking also no mood
listen song also no mood
everything start to go wrong
duno why
suddenly all my friends feel very sad
down
depress
can i help them
i also feel down because of them
moody
emo
haha
since when suddenly i can feel so many things in one time
i also not sure
moody moody moody moody
haiz
just hope everything that not happy at all can be solved faster and easily
AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!^^

Relieve

got a long time did not play blog already

just feel very lazy

but today i really relieve

1. finally i can say bye to all my researches..bye to the physical therapy first, and then bye to the biodiesel..bye to the botox and finally bye bye to biofuels

haha..the funnist things is these three researches are start from 'b'

haha

finaly i feel relieve

no need to worry about ab, outline, presentation, draft..everything

eventhough i did not do well in these three researches (may be is the worst, who know?)

but it already pass..and i also dun want to care it anymore

becoz i know the final is the most importance 1

2. finally i finished my ielts

haha..i gt band 7 o

eventhough is not a very high band

compared with all my friends

but well

for a people whose the english level is so damn bad

7 is enough for me

satisfied with it

writing is the 1 that gv me most surprise

really unbelievable i can get a such good result

same band with cat

just my listening very bad

6.5 only

haiz...

but more than 6 a

okay already

3. finally just left 2 months more here

and i can continue my study at australia

with my friends (hope is the people that i hope can go with)

i wish

can fly

continue my dream

really feel relieve now

even though still got trial and final

but i know i can do it

i should do it

and

i must do it

God bless me.....

迷失...方向..

刚开始的那一股劲
渐渐地
消失了
开始自己也忘了来这里的目地
盲目的
过着 每一天
开始迷失了方向
怀疑着到底这是我想要的吗
没力了
没劲了
可是日子还是那样
漫无目的地过着
开始觉得很痛苦
发现自己来到了一个
不属于我的地方
为何会变成这样
不明白
不了解
不懂

Greedy girl...

i am such a greedy girl
for example
when i watch to watch a drama
i will try very hard to get the drama from my friends
or download from internet
or watch it everyday from internet
however
when i get it
i will not start to watch it
i will start to find a new drama again
so
nothing that i will be interested for a long time
maybe the frst moment i will feel interest
but later
i sure will feel bored about it
and...
this is me
a very greedy girl
and cannot make a good decision anytime
however
i just hope that my passion to my study
and my work
and my family, friends
last but not least my idol, tvxq
i still will not bored with them all forever
and ever...

THE most serious problems...

If u read twilight series the second book-New Moon, you will know one part in the novel stated about the problems that faced by Bella..in the book, Bella had faced many obstacles due to she is a "danger magnet"...but the most serious problem that faced by her is Edward Cullen..she scared that he will leave her again..

But..in this moment, the most serious problem that i faced now is rearding my ielts performances..i m very 9x100000000000000000 times very bad in eng..n i got my ielts test in August..OMG..what the hell i can do to improve my eng in this short period???just hope that miracle can happen ???erm..sound imposssible eventhough i hope that it can come true...

Start to feel stress for this last semester...too late already for me to improve my eng...well ..if i got a chance i will study and start to practice my eng since standard 1..(but eventhough i got this chance, i not think that i will do it, coz i am the lazy bum bum people..wahaha)..really need to be serious from this time...cannot like the first semester and the second semester...

Fly to Australia..is the dream for all the people in Ausmat programme...except go to NZ la...will i have this chance 2 go 2 there???yes, i have..But, do i have this luck to go to there???erm..this is hard to say..But, I WANT IT TO HAPPEN!!!

tired and sleepy..

Just come cack from the camp at meru,feel very tired and sleepy.However, this camp is better that what i thought before.We join the juniors that will go to France in 1 June.They are so lucky!Even though i struggle so hard in my study i also cannot sure that whether i can fly or not.But they can fly soon.It is so unfair but what to do?Nevertheless, got 2 handsome guys in this batch of juniors. Got 1 i really feel very shock when i knew his race. He look like people from foreign country and mix with chinese. However, they told me that he is hindu.OMG!He is hindu?

Got Hindu that can have a fair complexion like him?Is even fairer than me.Cant believe it.Another 1 looks like a member from super junior (Lee Teuk). A very handsome guy. About the camp, i just got something i want to complaint. First is the water there very polluted and this had caused blu blu sick very bad. Another is the foods are not nice at all and the time table is too packed. This made me donot have enough of time to sleep. In this camp,

finally...

finally...somebody already help me to make a decision..
the decision that i do not want to make or i refuse to make it..
but i think i am the only one that think too much in this case..
the other party just act cool and continue his life like normal...
but..i cannot do that...
sometimes i created some situation so that i can see him..
sometimes i purposely say something so that he can listen..
sometimes i go away so that i will not get into troubles because of the rumours...
but..now..someone already tell me the truth...
that i am the only party that think too much..
we just friends...very very very normal friend..
i need to bear in my mind from this second that..
we just are normal friend....

真的..真的..累了

一向来
只喜欢在后面远远的看着
从来不采取任何的行动
主动从来就不是我的作风
渐渐的
他们的身边开始多了另一个人
可是
我....还是一个人...
动作和心里想的开始变得不一致
很怀疑到底我要的是什么
那样做..不是在折磨自己吗?
到最后还是得不到任何东西
心又在痛了
是我不比她们好吗
真的..真的..累了..
大家的指指点点
我已经受够了
真的..真的..累了..
应经开始渐渐不懂我自己
太烦了..是时候放手了吧
放手
让自己有回自尊
让自己不会那么痛苦
因为我
真的..真的..
累了

Exam..is not the end of the life..

recently, my sem 2 exam is around the corner..eventhough the study leave is almost want to finish ,but i din put many efforts in this exam...at study room u can see all the people are struggling to cram all the books in their brain..after read the textbooks and then they start to do ssabsa past year, midyear ,masa, sace , senior works...omg...i wonder whether they got enough of time 2 sleep ..when i go to the study room and compared with them, i will become the weird and the most lazy ppl..haha..but this is quite impossible for me to change my attitude, that is enjoy my life at everytime...nowadays, i will not feel very sad eventhough i screw out in my exam..is already seem normal to me..if u feel sad, what u can do?u cant change ur result anymore coz it already past...i 100% sure that i wil not cry due to i gt very bad in my exam in my whole life..100% sure...just want to say "relax people..EXAM IS NOT THE END OF YOUR LIFE...just a small obstacle that u need to face only"...

Single or In a relatioship???

well..when everyone ask about the status of someone, this 2 phrases sure will cross their mind..actually do you enjoy single life or in a relationship?

As a single male or female, you do not have any restriction in your life.This does not mean that you are free to do anythings without considering people's feeling. Just you no need to talk to your lover all the reasons you wan to do the things and no need to tell them your schedule everyday. You can enjoy your life and can have a good relationship with your friends that are different sex without any worries.Besides that, it also can save your money and reduce your financial problem. If you are a guy, i think you know why i say like that.In addition, you must be a creative and romantic people because a romantic life will make the relationship become longer ans more stable.

Although single can bring many benefits to someone, but sometimes do you will feel that you are alone.May be you got many friends in your life but do they can with you anytime you need them. Do you think that they will think about you at the first moment in every cases. Not really. Furthermore,sometime you face some critical problems but you cannot discuss it with your friends because you do not know whether they will tell your secret to other people. You also cannot tell to your beloved family members because sometime they not really understand the condition you facing on that time.You will feel helpless.

However, if you are in a relationship now, i think you will think that you are the people that the most lucky in this world. This is because you can find a people that also love you very much in this giant universe.He or she will share your happiness and sadness everytime you need them. They will try to make your life become wonderful and everyday make you feel you are the special in this world. You will feel like you are the king or queen to them. They will spend time with you without any lamb excuses.

Nevertheless, human will change from time to time. Sometimes your friends may be can become your enemy in the future, how about your lover? You cannot 24 hours stay with your lover because everyone got their own social group.You will not know whether he or she are loyal to you all the time.You cannot 100% sure that any words and things they told you are the truth.So, conflicts will start and you two will not believe to each other anymore. Finally, is either break out or form bigger and bigger gap..

So, is be a single better than in a relationship? You can think about it and leave your comment...

really really very sad....

Today..i really feel very sad and down...i got speaking practice test in the afternoon n then the test really was sucks! the comments that she gave me really make me think that i was so useless ans stupid...my whole mood be ruined by that stupid speaking practice test eventhough that morning i just got bac my math and spec math paper that are quite well..However, the things that she said is right, my pronunciation is not good at all, grammatical error and other minor minor things..haiz...how can i improve my pronunciation in the short period (1 and half months)..i am not like my roomate that is english educated people...it seem like an impossible task to me..but i know i need to improve myself because i do not want to take the ielts test again..never and ever in my life...sad and miserable..and that girl that always said i always cannot compared with you all was at the same room with me when the lecturer gave me comments..well..actually i do not mind she was at there...eventhough she tells all the ausmat students what the lecturers said ,i also do not mind...this is because this is the truth, my english is not good at all..bot just may be we cannot be friends anymore..do i put enough of efforts on my ielts?not really..so i accept the comments that the lecturer gave me...So, i now swear that i need to study and practice hard my ielts and i can get band 8 and above in the real ielts test!!!

the last week for this sem....

THIS week is the last week for this sem...feel like empty in my brain...this sem was the most hectic sem i haven experienced before..assignment, tests,quizzes,math n spec math exercises,n the things that i hate the most...researches...well...is very hard to believe that i want to say goodbye to tis sem n welcome the last sem of Ausmat....this means that my final is coming soon....sad la...well...today i juz finished the stupid bio test n yesterday i juz finished the math test..erm..the math test is ok,but my biology really very hard to say..hopefully can get a lo...the 2nd sem is a very weird sem..the first and the second months i felt like in the hell..n then the last two months i felt like not enough of times to finish all my works and my revision...haha...but the thing i felt so happy is i got many good classmates..erm..this did not means that my ex-classmates not good..this is because my class not got more chinese and got mr.C in my ex-class...haiz...is not i dun like that guy...is i dun wan same class with him...haha..if he know i think he will kill me..haha...

Share the world

Share the world... is the title song of tvxq new japanese single. Congrates to them coz got the 1st in the Oricon Chart weekly again..this showed that tvxq is very famous at japan..."Share the world" is a nice song n i like the mv very much..is different with the mv that shotted before...very nice.."Share the world" is a theme song for "One Piece"..n another song in this single,"We are", also is one of the theme song for "One Piece" too.Tvxq is the only idol that i can like for a long period till now...i still can remember the 1st day i knew tvxq..that time i was at form.3..i think that year was the second year tvxq debut...i listened the song "Rising Sun" from "Pop in Seoul" and i almost fainted when i watched the music video...I was dumfounded...5 handsome n cute boys...fantastic n powerful dance...n good vocal...omg...frm that time,i started to get more information about tvxq online,from magazine and tv show...the member that i like the most is max(Shim Chang Min)...he is so cute n i found that he and me got many similarities in attitude...haha...i noe him from the interviews la...cassiopeia dun think too much...well..i oso like other members (u-know,xiah,hero n micky)...i like their songs,dances,looks..when i told my friends that i like tvxq, they always will think that i like them because they are good-looking...well,i cannot deny that this is one of the reason..However, the main reason i like them because they are not like the artists that just depend on their look and their luck..they trained for a long times( quite many years) before they debuted..they also learn many languages so that the can communicate with their fans...they also always improve their skills in singing and dancing..not so many ppl can dance and sing as well as than them...they did not know dancing before they joined the SM audition (except u-know)..they always try 2 improve themselves and always be humble...they are really very good...well...i hope that i can watch their concert live in the future...i hope that i can see them (not from magazines or online)...hope that they can break many records and can be healthy forever...TVXQ..Aza Aza Fighting!!!

我不能跟你们比...

"我不能跟你们比..."
她的口头禅...我的恶梦...
她...总爱把这句话挂在嘴边...
说是谦虚..但...却不是...
她..功课一向来都不错...都比我好..
但她却总喜欢说这句话...
听起来真的很讽刺...是在说...
"你们的程度太低了...不能跟我比吗?"
影射我笨吗?
真的真的....很讨厌你再说那句话了 ...
我越来越不想跟她说话了...
背后对她的批评越来越多...可是....
她懂吗?
应该知道吧...
不想做她们的其中一份子...
希望她有自知之明...
不要再让我听到
那句话了...

maureennimi..who are u?

Maureennimi..is one of my name..
i got many name in my life..some sound good..some really..haiz...
well..maureen is the name that 1 of my tuition teacher gave me..
actually i not really like the name...
sound...weird..
but..i think this is suitable 2 become the name for this blog...
nimi...what is this mean?
this is a secret...
i am a normal girl...a normal student..
everyday wake up,breakfast, study,lunch,study,dinner,study, n sleep...
wat a boring life is this!!!
but..interesting people n events always make my life looks special a bit...
so...this make my blog name..
special life..normal girl...
everybody is normal but everyone is special...
Special for u......n me.....

Begin...

this is the first day i start blogging...
there are many reasons i do this
is it influenced by friends?or i wan 2 express my feeling n idea?
or just for fun?
actually i duno..really no idea..
well..
begin is my 1st post...
when u heard 'begin' this word, what is on ur mind?
erm..for me..
i will remember one japanese song that sang by tvxq...
"Everyday and night with u...begin..."
For me, this is a nice song..
one of my favourite song too..
In this life...
if u just say that u wan 2 do something..
but u din take any action..
this mean u do nothing..
'action speak louder than words'
well..a good beginning is a good start...
begin...special life..normal girl...