My first semester GOAL

Today is the last second day of my first semester at here
and the exam is coming soon
people always said a person need to have goal to success
i agree on it
so, i set my goal:
1. try my best at every units and try to score well
2. hope that in each units i can score more than 80 marks
3. this can consider a quite serious goal that i 100% should do this:
which are score better than the SAMPAHTONG!!!
I swear i need to score better than him in everything
It was shamed that i scored less than him in SACE
And i cannot make this type of thing happen again in my life
Never and ever
Fxcking....shit!!!
4. this is the most important:
Relax and enjoy life no matter what is going on
and behave as what i am and who i am

Lastly, cheer girl!!!U can do this!!!

sick = suck....

is this a curse?

why almost every time the exam is coming soon

i will fall sick

why??

again

this happen before my 2 coming soon PHS and prac test

totally suck

no mood to do everything due to my runny nose

cannot breath well now

suck suck suck

recently also faced sleeping problem

too cold

really cannot adapt to melbourne weather

keep on fluctuating

like a girl

i really do not like sick la

like what all the people in the world thought

really feel suck

hope i can get better as soon as possible

btw, i found the blog again

without any effort

i think he already delete the older posts

whatever

it is not interesting for me anymore

i am just lucky...lolz..

i still remember got 1 person tell me that if i feel that i am lucky

i cant speak them out and show off in front of people

so i choose to write at here

even though i think it is still the same thing

am i lucky???

this is the question that i always ask myself

if at australia

then , i think i am quite lucky

but, if u want to count my luckiness from the day that i born

then i really have no idea

i got my family members that love me so much

but just i do not have a wealthy family background

so, sometimes i cannot enjoy what normal children should do

and sometimes i experienced some that most of the child wont experience in their life forever

even is like this

i still always have positive thinking

i know life is fair

i will get what i want

just i need to wait

and now i got the opportunity

that i never dream for it before

i know there are many people fight for this chance

and there are more intelligent than me

but, how in the world i get it

cannot believe it even though i already at here

so, i am just lucky

so lucky...

The truth...

Camouflage..

is one of the natural process that animal can act to protect themselves

same to human

but we cannot camouflage

what we can do is hiding our own personalities..

the truth of yourself

and pretending in front of everyone

what a tired life is that

pretending and acting

do what u do not like to do

follow what people say without asking yourself

whether you want to do it or not

so

sometimes i like to act cool

the moment that i want to be myself

100% of myself

do what ever i want

without people's thought and action

do what i want

do not care other people opinion

even though i know i will be alone

and alone all the way

but who care??

i am changing...

physically and 'chemically'

haha

but how i am changing

the deepest part of my heart still telling me

i am still what i am