Duno why..suddenly the idea of i was writing blog before had crossed my mind, totally get lost of how many years i didnot update the blog. Thought it ll b during uni time, but surprisedly is during the time i already stay at this house ( i am still staying at the same house after 5 years any way).Today is my 30th birthday, still remember i celebrated my 25th birthday here also , alone in the hotel. Just cant predict five years after that, i am still here, celebrated my birthday with my colleagues. Time pass without notice me i already 30..just like what my mummy said jus now, i am not young anymore. Anyway, in this five years i didnt update my blogs, a lots of things happenned, big and small, important or minor, it make me who i am now. When just now i looked at every post i did wrote before, first i feel is damn it, my english is so good.haha.Second is i did mentioned God quite a few times in my personal blog, make me realised that i did depended on God alone when i was at the foreign country. Anyway, just like what quran said, God always will stay with me, watch me and support me every time. From the wishes i hoped before, can say most of it did achieved, Masha Allah. I found out that who i am now i a bit coward than who i am few years back, i duno why, mayb is because of the age , more worries, more commitment, i unsure. And i did found out a lot of new character of myself when i in a new chapter of life, it seriously freak me out sometimes, but now when i think back, i will appreciate that times, let me know who i was in the past, so that i will try my best wont do the same things again and again. Era of 30th will be a new start cover page for me, unlike my chill and relaxing 20, can foresee 30th to 40th will be a more chalenging and more surprising years to me. Am i scared, of course i am. Will i be afraid, of course i am. But will i refuse to move on, NO!!!There ll a lot of times secomd chance wont be provided to me, hold what God give me, just like what i always said before, things all happen for a reason, everything is destiny by God, we just walk the path He show us and choose where we want to go next. Be patient when walking until see the T junction or roundabout. Hope He always there and guide me the righteous and suitable path for me, Insya Allah. I not sure when will i be updated this blog again. But i hope if by chance when i am 40 years old, blog spot still exist, i ll have chance read this post again, and stil believ what i still believe and still be a normal girl, but have a special life..Last but not lease, let me make a 30th years old wishes at here to conclude this post:
1. Still the same, hope the one i love, my family members and my friends stay healthy and happy always..especially during this covid time, healthy is always the first priority
2. I hope i am braver and much more mature from day to day, be a better person than the past,can contribute to the society
3. Insya allah, God can show me my right partner, the another half of my life, my aim of husband and wife relationship is we can help each other, support each other, be with each other, no matter happy or sad, grow together , learn together to become a better person, to have a family with kids, have a moderate but happy life
Shiming, even sometimes you will feel like wan to blow out, or feeling want to give out. Just remember who i am in the past will always support you, be with you, God ll be with you also, no matter what condition, you ll never be alone, you be loved and you always is the best!!!
