New Pages, New Chapter, Going to live in a better life, Insya Allah

 21 May 2023, almost three years after my last blogspot post, a lot of things happenned in my life in these 3 years. Happy, amaze, dumbfounded, adrenaline rush, angry, sad, lots of emotion had been felt by me during these past 3 years. Totally unbelieveble, i met my boyboy 4 years before i left Pahang, our relationship become closer and closer during the pandemic time. Try to know more about each other, learn from each other and enjoy every single day with each other. From colleagues, doctor and pharmacist, become friends, and slow slow become special people for each other today. Alhamdulillah. Start to know how to fast from the year of 2021, lots of obstacles and challenges, the path be eased, i am still learning, still want to improve myself, Insya Allah in 2024 , i can be given chance to fast completely, with lots of zikr and praying, with the one i love.

Finally, i transfered back to my hometown in Aug 2022, even the place i got was not in my wishlist, but Allah had better plan for me, i feel very grateful of where i currently working now, who work with me, and the life now. Insya Allah, i had the courage to face all the challenges and obstacles in the future, and i believe , all hardships come with ease.

Finally..after 5 years..i m back

Duno why..suddenly the idea of i was writing blog before had crossed my mind, totally get lost of how many years i didnot update the blog. Thought it ll b during uni time, but surprisedly is during the time i already stay at this house ( i am still staying at the same house after 5 years any way).Today is my 30th birthday, still remember i celebrated my 25th birthday here also , alone in the hotel. Just cant predict five years after that, i am still here, celebrated my birthday with my colleagues. Time pass without notice me i already 30..just like what my mummy said jus now, i am not young anymore. Anyway, in this five years i didnt update my blogs, a lots of things happenned, big and small, important or minor, it make me who i am now. When just now i looked at every post i did wrote before, first i feel is damn it, my english is so good.haha.Second  is i did mentioned God quite a few times in my personal blog, make me realised that i did depended on God alone when i was at the foreign country. Anyway, just like what quran said, God always will stay with me, watch me and support me every time. From the wishes i hoped before, can say most of it did achieved, Masha Allah. I found out that who i am now i a bit coward than who i am few years back, i duno why, mayb is because of the age , more worries, more commitment, i unsure. And i did found out a lot of new character of myself when i in a new chapter of life, it seriously freak me out sometimes, but now when i think back, i will appreciate that times, let me know who i was in the past, so that i will try my best wont do the same things again and again. Era of 30th will be a new start cover page for me, unlike my chill and relaxing 20, can foresee 30th to 40th will be a more chalenging and more surprising years to me. Am i scared, of course i am. Will i be afraid, of course i am. But will i refuse to move on, NO!!!There ll a lot of times secomd chance wont be provided to me, hold what God give me, just like what i always said before, things all happen for a reason, everything is destiny by God, we just walk the path He show us and choose where we want to go next. Be patient when walking until see the T junction or roundabout. Hope He always there and guide me the righteous and suitable path for me, Insya Allah. I not sure when will i be updated this blog again. But i hope if by chance when i am 40 years old, blog spot still exist, i ll have chance read this post again, and stil believ what i still believe and still be a normal girl, but have a special life..Last but not lease, let me make a 30th years old wishes at here to conclude this post:

1. Still the same, hope the one i love, my family members and my friends stay healthy and happy always..especially during this covid time, healthy is always the first priority

2. I hope i am braver and much more mature from day to day, be a better person than the past,can contribute to the society

3. Insya allah, God can show me my right partner, the another half of my life, my aim of husband and wife relationship is we can help each other, support each other, be with each other, no matter happy or sad, grow together , learn together to become a better person, to have a family with kids, have a moderate but happy life

Shiming, even sometimes you will feel like wan to blow out, or feeling want to give out. Just remember who i am in the past will always support you, be with you, God ll be with you also, no matter what condition, you ll never be alone, you be loved and you always is the best!!!

Am I practice in a right way??

Rarely post about my job here
But suddenly lots of questions pop out in my head
Let me start to think
Am I practice in a right way??
The practice here is totally different from what I learnt before during uni times
So many unsure and uncertain
And I always give out answer when I cant 100% confirm
Will I put the innocent people life in danger??
I don't know

Maybe is time to study and double confirm things that i unsure
Hope I will get a nice mentor who can guide me all the way along my career life
Pls GOD!!!

那一年，五个人的光辉，我的青春

刚刚看完JYJ的唯一的综艺节目，
觉得他们这几年来走得不容易，
不能宣传新歌，不能打歌
靠的是唯一还非常支持他们的歌迷
不离不弃

韩国娱乐圈是很残酷的
有些团从没红过
有些就只是其中几位或一位比较红
有些则是红了一年， 就不红了
不知不觉，也追了KPOP有十多年了，
新团早已追不动，
旧团留下的也所剩无几
想想东团5子其实都走得比其他团好
红了那么多年，5个人都红
算是奇迹了
靠的的当然是他们的努力和一直维持着对成为歌手的初衷

饭上他们已是好几年前的事了
他们代表了我的青春
我的热情，我的希望
2009 年的分离，曾经让我对他们感到失望
可是我尊重他们的选择
至少大家现在都过得好好的
虽然这条路难走的些

他们的分离，
让我渐渐对KPOP没有那么的热情
可能也和我的年龄有关吧
可是每每看到他们的新闻
还是很高兴，
饭上他们是我的骄傲
有一天我一定会亲眼见到你们的
可能你们永远都不会团聚
可我都会把你们5子都亲身见一面

谢谢你们，东方神起
是你们让我拿无趣，无力的十年代
带来光彩和希望
细亚俊秀，米奇有天，英雄在中，最强昌珉，UKNOW 允浩
你们永远都是我的偶像

BIG BANG MADE CONCERT 2015 IN MALAYSIA

Still remember when i was around 16 years old,
One of my dream was going to see tvxq concert in malaysia
When they are still 5
However, in 2009, they became 2 + 3
Saddest year ever for all cassiopeia
No hope they will be 5 again on the stage
TT

Then when i studied in university
One of my dream was going to big bang concert
Wherever, whenever
If i can afford it and I got the oppurtunity
I will go
But in 2012 they held the concert in Malaysia,
I was at Australia at that time
Again, I miss the concert

This year, 2015,
Knew that Taeyang will come to Malaysia for RISE concert
But Taeyang is not enough
I want more!MORE!
Maybe GOD want to give me a gift as I finish my prp life
They will come to here
To hold their MADE world tour concert

Actually not plan to go at first
As I am alone and transport issue
Fortunately, EL come to ask me and there is an additional date be added on due to popularity
We decided to buy it

Was having night shift the day before
with my panda eyes, sitting on the bus
Travelled to kl with nervourness and happiness
Finally we got to stadium Bukit Jalil
If compared to the concerts that I went in the past
This one can be considered the greatest and crowded ever
Girls, boys, uncles, aunties, every races
We come and gather here for them

For the whole concert,
The first thing I am impressed on is how successful YG team is
The lightning, the flow, video, dancing team, musical team, everything
Just perfect
Without them cant have this good show

Another things to thanks to sure is BIG BANG
I knew they got 2 concert in every week and lots of variety show to join
But they are still so energetic and show their best side to us
GD is still so perfect and cute as what he is
Taeyang is still look so sincere and good english
TOP just cool but bit crazy
Seungri is still so talkative and dance well
Daesung is the one most popular and his vocal quite impressing
They sing all the old popular songs and the new songs
And most of the songs we follow and sing together
Proud of malaysia VIPs

Thanks you Big BANG
I know maybe the next time i see you all maybe will be few years later
Maybe after you all go for military service
Please stay healthy and be happy

B1A4 FanMeeting in KL Live..BEST FANMEET EVER

there had been a long time i became a fan of b1a4, i think was started from the year they debut 2011 until now, almost 4 years already. They always are one of my proud as they compose of their own songs and they are success in other areas such as acting and musical.

Only knew that they would come to malaysia two weeks ago. At first, I really think that i sure will buy the ticket. Howevr, after I had calmed my mind down and rethink again. I suddenly feel like what to hold it for a while as it was really expensive  199,299, 499 and 799. Besides that, it was quite late and rush for me to order a ticket now. Anyway, after i went back to skc and i really thought deeply about that, I still decide to go there and bought the GA priority 299 ticket which I think worth the most.

Worked till 11pm last night, actually can feel a little bit happy that I am going to see b1a4 soon. Please still remembered that time how crazy was I keep on refreshing m weibo when they had their first concert in 2013. OMG, it had been 2 years from their first concert. Met three other BANAs there and really happy someone also that familiar with kpop like me. And a guy Baro BANA too..actually most of the BANA are so young and i am damn old there. there are some parent accompany their kids come too..cant believe how they can come along. Reached there at 12 something and wait for around 6 hours so that I can go inside the kl live. 

Around 6pm, I am still outside as the stupid security and tgm ppl. But due to their stupidness, I success to change my ticket to VIP section. OMG, i had prayed for thousands for time i can get VIP nad finally i managed to get it. Damn the stage is really so near (actually like what i saw in xia conert but further a bit), the show start at 610pm and the MC really so annoying. Anyway, introduction video start around 615pm and then b1a4 come out and all of them wear in suit with blue and white strips. The first member that went in my eye is BARO, damn gorgeous and handsome with his dark complexion and killing eye contact. He was the one always come to my side and do lots of fans service to us. Jinyoung also very handsome and skinny. He look like he got sore throat as I always saw he cough. Maybe due to tight schedule and hope he can get a good rest too. Channie is very charming and have a really clear eyes. CNU has a good body shape , and so gentle. Sanduel just ike usual sanduel, playful and always have a big smile.

They totally perform 10 songs, more than what i expect ( the one i expect is max only 6 songs). 10 songs is almost like half of concert d. Also got two fanservice part which were answer fan question ( why my question not be picked up) and drama scene cover ( really think some malays overeacted, I damn sure B1A4 asked those 5 fans many times before they did anything to them, Please dont blame them ok). from the fan serivice, you can see how kind and warm they are. They are just too perfect and humble. Make me love them more and more.

Anyway, also got the high touch event which I joined too due to my perfect lying and acting. Cant believe I can go on sstage so before is amn nervous.Actually is like less than 10 seconds, so I barely remember what is going on . Well, their hands got perfume on it so u still can smell their perfumes after that. Their hands are so warm and big. CNU is the first he is so gentle man and say thank you to me. Please I should be one say thank you to you. The thing I say to CNU is fighting. Then channie I also say fighting and he open his big and clear eyes look at me and say thx u. I very sure that time I am a bit in shock when he stare at me (STARE AT ME OK). But I still move on to jinyoung, Jinyoung look a bit weak ( that y we call u grand dad), he use his wolf eye look at me and touch my hand softly. then is sanduel turn, another blur face come and he is cute anway. Last is baro, really very handsome and his skin complexiion is dark and he has a good skin condition. He is the one who not really touch my hands (not blaming you ok..haha).

In conclusion, Really happy to see five of them and they did a great performaces. Best live and best audio. Thumb up to them. Best fan service, best vocal and best rap. Among three I had joined so far, this is the one I enjoy the most, maybe too much of experience before and the security really is nothing, so lots of pics and video plus lots of intercation with them 

i very sure this is the first but wont be the last time I see them. 

GOOD LUCK in Jinyoung, Baro, CNU, gongchan and Sandeul's future, I very sure you all wont make me disappointed. We will meet each other again in future and show me how much you all have grow. 

PS: this fanmeet bring MORE MORE MORE than what I expected..lots songs, extended time, fan service...best ever in my life

LOVE YOU B1A4,

FROM YOUR LOVELY BANA..^^

#letsflyb1a4 #b1a4liveinkl #150110thisishowanewyearshouldstart

Boxing Day of 2014...Open the box in my heart...

Time is really passing so fast
I am a lazy people so updating blog is almost like an impossible mission to me
But the main reason i wrote a blog is when i feel like i got mood
I will open blog and try to read what story I had recorded in the past
Try to find back the history
Pieces by pieces

Just find out that I already did not update my blog for 1 and half years
Maybe because the end of 2013 I was busying with my finale and my graduation trip
And then early of the year I just wondering around at Melbourne
And busy with moving house and settle all the things
Then from Feb to July start my dry, boring but freedom times
Free from work, study and internet
Just relax daily and wait for the posting
Then from 8th of july until today, this seconds,
Busy with work ( actually not very busy also, just wake up and back at the same time daily)
So, here is my 2014, cannot think back anything special
No travel, no outing
Nothing but is compact
Feel like nothing happen But actually many Big things happened
First time I drive alone
First time I got an official job
First time I has my own room
First time and hope is the last time : accident
First time become a house interior designer
First time step into my own house

Things do happen for a reason
One of my quote of life
Why i got posting here and there
Who I had met In my life and where i rotated
Sure has the reasons behind
Unsure whether I had understood the reason behind or not
But I am still finding, seeking and try to understand
Learning and growing

2014 is going to end
2015 is coming
Lots of challenges and unsure things are waiting for me
Unsure what will happen
Good or Bad
Happy or sad
But when it is the right time, it will come

My wishes for the upcoming year, 2015:
1. My family members and I stay healthy, wealthy and happily
2, Can travel oversea safely twice in 2015
3. Buy a car
4. Work at a place that really suit me (even I dont know where is it)
5. Success to earn RM 50000 in my bank account （I know I am greedy..lol)